http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/ the life and times of the calavera contingent en Copyright 2011 Mon, 28 Feb 2011 17:30:01 -0800 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/ http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss a belated valentine's weekend you might call it but i took my girl out during this last weekend of february to a city most in this area would probably never go to unless they absolutely had to. thus, it was the perfect getaway. i booked a hotel room and we had a very lovely time. we tried cupcakes from a "cupcake wars" tv show winner (not vegan, too much frosting). we did my favorite thing, to fall asleep after sex and then wake up to more sex. it couldn't have felt more perfect and yet somehow i managed to tarnish perfection. my girlfriend asked if i would watch the academy awards with her at her place. it might turn into a little party. i thought we'd have some munchies and some drinkies and we could laugh and have a good time because i'm not really into the oscars. on top of that, i'm really not into who wore what (i still hate the industry that made fun of bjork for her beautiful swan dress) and the red carpet stuff, which is what we mostly watched. even though i may not be into this particular award show, i can't stand that they cut people off in their speech and allow certain categories to get more speech time than others. just because less people in the general public are interested in editing or special effects and such rather than say best picture or leading actor does not mean they don't deserve their moment on stage to say what they want to say, whether it be thank yous or a rant. so when my gf and her friends are also making fun of the categories the mass public may not care as much about, when they are wanting them to exit the stage, i'm not happy about it. these people in the film industry, it's their dream to be recognized with a nomination or a win sometimes. for me, my dream at one point was to do something to win just so i could snub the industry in my speech and tell them to piss off. hey, everyone has a dream. overall, i think the awards are bullshit so when i was asked if i thought a performance was oscar worthy, i said i'm not into the oscars and as i was pressed further, i just let my mouth flow as it so often does for things i don't like, for things i hate. i don't give a fuck about the oscars. and with that i killed the relationship. i didn't realize it then until i went home to a message. and i responded...too much. then i woke up to read something which angered me because i felt misunderstood, that i was seen as placing a value judgement on my gf when i was not. i couldn't carpool to work in the state i was in so i drove to work and let my anger flow out in tears. then i had trouble with work and a million text messages later i was driving home with tears of frustration. my gf wanted to meet to talk but i couldn't even think about such a thing because i would spend all day at work focused on the what ifs instead of focusing on work. i needed time to chill out again then i could think about it. instead, i got shut down. maybe i just don't explain myself well. my gf hates that i step on eggshells with my ex when we communicate and now i'm treading on eggshells with my gf. i know she loves certain things i don't so i try not to say anything too bad about it other than i don't like it and maybe why. i clearly stated why i don't like the oscars and i get slammed for it, that i was being rude. that it hurts her because she loves it. i didn't realize she loved it that much that i can't say how i honestly feel about it. hell, there are things i love that my gf does not and sometimes i am hurt and feel insulted that she doesn't like it but i let it go. we just like different things. and just to be clear, i sent a little list of things that we have different opinions on. but it was a value judgement to her. *sigh* after lunch, i felt like vomiting. now i've been drinking and i feel like vomiting. the alcohol has turned my anger to sadness. and i feel like such a loser. a failure. i'm crying and my dog is licking my feet because he wants to play. happy fucking valentine's month. i am really not fucking looking forward to being yelled at. *sigh* http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/why_do_i_always_ruin_a_good_weekend.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/why_do_i_always_ruin_a_good_weekend.html screaming Mon, 28 Feb 2011 17:30:01 -0800 i'm starting to regret getting such a short haircut as it is leading to too many comparisons to my gf's ex. also, getting tired of the jokes of my attraction to latinas. *sigh* http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/bad_choice_on_the_haircut.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/bad_choice_on_the_haircut.html thinking Sun, 27 Feb 2011 22:45:04 -0800 i don't know why but i sorta wanted one last meeting with my ex, i guess to close the final chapter. so when the opportunity came for such a thing, i didn't shy away from it though i was willing to be respectful to my current gf and not go at all. the small talk chit chat was pleasant enough. the nicetries were said. it wasn't too bad. but then i couldn't walk away without for sure trying to maybe resolve something or say something that would really close the chapter and that's when she started crying. well, overall, i was quite satisfied with the last meeting. even if there's still some issues, we have both moved on. that is the important thing. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/the_last_meeting.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/the_last_meeting.html uncoupling Fri, 25 Feb 2011 20:39:31 -0800 she feels like i'm acting like i'm her mother. i'm not. i was just trying to find out what's wrong and help. i can't do anything right. *cries* i had actually been wanting to ask her what her school schedule was so i would know when not to call/text. instead, i can't ask because she will think i'm checking on her but i'm not her mother. fuck... http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/my_girlfriend_hates_me.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2011/02/my_girlfriend_hates_me.html screaming Mon, 07 Feb 2011 22:14:44 -0800 i hate phones. i have hated phones since the late 1980s. i don't like talking on them. i try to avoid them. that is why it is ironic when i get jobs that require talking on the phone or when i purchase a cell phone of my own volition. no really, i hate phones. mobile web, email, and even texting are great. but talking? i hate phones. i prefer in person or written communication. i hate phones. tonight doesn't change that one bit. the day started off well enough, cooking for thanksgiving and then being a bit lazy. while in the middle of cooking, my girlfriend was a dear and ran to the store to get something for which i only needed a few teaspoons of. the remote for the gate is acting up so i kept checking the gate, to see if she had returned but was having trouble so that i could try another remote. kept checking and checking and nothing. finally she was back and at the door and i never even noticed her coming through the gate. so then entered the lazy period watching tv. after that, i sent my girlfriend off with vegan food i made and then i spent a couple hours at my family's. i thought we'd reconvene at my place to help her study for a big exam. i'm planning little practice questions. i'm trying to come up with a quiz to print out for her to take while she's at my place. my house is a bit of a mess and i really need to do laundry. i want to make it cleaner to provide a better study environment and to have it decent enough to have potential renters come by and check out the empty room. i was washing dishes, trying to clean up my kitchen counters, doing laundry, and all the while checking my phone every 5-10 minutes for signs of when she would be back. i didn't take any photos of all the food i made and was thinking that when she came over, we'd probably eat again so i'd take pictures of the food then. this is our anniversary weekend and as i'm alone in the house with my thoughts, my brain is trying to come up with something good for our broke asses. i'm thinking a nice dinner and doing some things we've talked about doing but have not done. things that have meaning for us to symbolically move on from the past and to come together. more and more we are growing closer and futures are being dreamed of but then in a second something stupid happens and it all gets fucked up. as time wore on and there were no messages, i thought either this is going to get late or she has decided not to come over afterall. i didn't finish cleaning but was getting tired so i took a break to watch some tv while playing games online and while the dog slept next to me. my phone was in my pocket and after awhile of nothing i checked and was shocked to see i had like 4 missed calls from her and text messages. i started to read the text messages and knew i was in deep shit. i didn't even check the voicemail before i called her. what could i say? i've never had anyone hate me for phone issues like this. so we were on the phone for what seemed like ages, mostly silent and completely awkward. i can't let you hang up mad at me but i don't know what to say... don't know what to do... drive over now in my robe and take the chance that you actually will let me in?....put the phone on speaker and try to browse the web from the phone so i can answer her questions as to what my schedule will be like tomorrow.. it's really hard to say... it's not like i was ignoring her, late picking her up at the airport, or was even out of touch for hours or even a fucking hour... but still, i'm the asshole. i don't live by my phone. a missed call is a trifle thing when you're not on edge for trying to connect with someone to exchange information, to schedule something, etc. i guess i wasn't on edge like that because i was preparing for her arrival, an arrival which was not to come. i guess she was on edge because this arrival was not confirmed for her. i don't always notice the phone alert me of calls or messages. it's usually on vibrate because the noises can interrupt work, can not be heard at all at times when i have music/tv on, fucks up my listening to music in the car because iphone tries to hijack bluetooth for everything, and the sounds can plain annoy me. but this is improper phone etiquette... the dog didn't even notice my phone's alerts and he'll bark even if a mouse farts next door. but i'm supposed to be on top of it. as much as i have tried to be a good girlfriend, my job really is to constantly check my phone and send updates. a friend once asked me what it's like to date someone you don't live with. this is what it's like. abandon your phone for more than 5 minutes and you're in the dog house with a lot of explaining to do. we hang up, i go to check on my laundry and slam the washing machine because i'm so frustrated and don't know what the fuck to do, waking up the dog. so phones, i want to just officially notify you of how much i hate you. *tears* http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/11/i_hate_phones.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/11/i_hate_phones.html screaming Thu, 25 Nov 2010 21:44:41 -0800 http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/disney_with_her_family.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/disney_with_her_family.html living Sun, 24 Oct 2010 23:25:33 -0800 it is assumed that those who are against animal research are hypocrites, are foolish to refuse medical services which have benefitted from animal research, or are terrorists. that is not necessarily the case, just as those who advocate and perform animal research are not scientific versions of nazis or sadistic torturers. while there have been and may continue to be some research which can be seen as cruel or for which good alternatives may exist, (such as crash test dummies for safety devices instead of bashing heads of primates or humans), it may be the best practice at the current time for current regulated methods to be employed that utilize animals, even if it may turn one's stomach for various reasons. a chemistry professor once told me that the ideal is to develop a drug like aspirin that has little side effect. now let's suppose that there's a drug like aspirin out there which we have not discovered and perfected and like aspirin it can be fatal to some animals but quite beneficial to humans. we go through the animal testing phases, working our way up to more complicated species where it is proved lethal and thus research is terminated before it even got to reach the human testing phase. (instead of this talk about drugs that work well in certain species but then are harmful to humans.) so for this kind of reason I think a couple humans tested in the early stages isn't a bad thing. if a country has the death penalty in place and the condemned has exhausted all appeals, then i see no harm in testing against their will, just as animals are tested against their will. or experimenting on already sick animals instead of making them sick, if possible. i don't know if I would question treatments if my life were on the line but I do know that i choose to abstain as much as possible from animal (bi-)products but also unrelatedly to such products as aspirin. i do not visit doctors because even though I work at a university engaged in research that uses animals and have good medical insurance, maintaining one's health is costly. it's costly enough to try to eat right and not fill my life up with chemicals but i can't stop what does creep in to my system and habitat. plus, i have little faith in medicine thus far from personal experience. the medical advancements made are great and if you can access the internet then you have benefitted from them but that didn't prevent my dad dying at the hand's of a doctor who said treating him would be as simple as removing the sliver from my brother's foot, my grandparents' deaths, my uncle's insanity, etc. some might say that if more research had been conducted, the above would have received better treatment. i can't raise an animal and slaughter it when they are other ways I can live in this country. canine research will benefit my beloved pet? do it but I can't afford it. the mice in the building that i work in might one day treat the cancer that killed my grandfather, that is afflicting my friend, or treat the various addictions afflicting modern man? again, beneficial but it comes at a high price and that's something one has weigh and consider for themselves. but in the meantime it makes for funny jokes to outsiders about how the university i work at buys heroin. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/my_stupid_thoughts_as_a_vegan_on_animal_research.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/my_stupid_thoughts_as_a_vegan_on_animal_research.html thinking Tue, 19 Oct 2010 20:40:54 -0800
i've never been into zombies. sure, i loved "night of the living dead" but beyond that, meh! somehow though, zombie rollerskating to goth-industrial music really caught my attention. i was excited for it. this rollerskating event happens once a month in LA and i only heard about it recently and didn't go to the last one. it's funny because i guess i would've never thought of goth-industrial fans as the type to rollerskate and yet that is me. i haven't rollerskated as an adult. years ago i even bought some industrial pants thinking that they'd be perfect for rollerskating. recently i bought some rollerskates so that i could exercise with the dog. this is all too perfect. this time though the theme for goth-industrial rollerskating is zombies so i looked up how to do zombie makeup and go all out crazy for it, buying special makeup because this is halloween so it's not hard to go out and buy it. i told my girl about the skating event and she said she'd go. she's also recently bought a pair of skates and has tried to get back into this childhood love of ours. when it was time to leave my place though, it was weird. we each thought the other was going to drive. i guess this shouldn't be a big deal but it was to her. she's under the impression that she was invited and when you are invited to something, you don't drive. i was under the impression that when you drive to my house, you are picking me up. plus, i just applied all this fake blood on me and didn't want to move my arms around driving, possibly causing it to spill and stain. valid enough excuse so she drove but then we couldn't find the rink so she was pissed. one of those we should just go home moments. but then, we found it and skated for a bit. the makeup was fun but it's such a bitch. i'm still not sure if it was worth the trouble to go out tonight.]]> http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/zombie_rollerskating.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/zombie_rollerskating.html living Mon, 11 Oct 2010 23:52:25 -0800
i'm an asshole ... and so that's how began the message that killed me. what a crap day! i thought the girlfriend and i and our dogs would hang out and i'd put them in the water to watch them swim. they need social interaction and exercise. thanks to the heat wave that comes and goes, it's warm enough. this could be the last time that it is warm enough to take the dogs swimming. but i arrived to a girlfriend shocked that i had brought my dog. so she grabbed her dog and we went to eat at native foods. we had barely gotten on the freeway when the tension was so great that i just wanted to turn around and go home. but i kept silent. native foods has a patio outside and usually when there's an outside patio, you can eat with your dog there. i could've even sworn i've see someone with their dog out there. but when we got to native foods, they said that dogs are not allowed. so we tried sitting out in the sun at some crap table. the sun was terrible. the dogs had lots of energy to get out. our food was not coming. by the time something arrives, i'm starving but the girlfriend is pissed so we take it to go and go home, whereupon i am told to leave so i do. i get it. i fucked up. i shouldn't have brought the dog she gave me. so i go home.. and i feel like shit. so i cut her name into my arm, only, i suck at doing this. i don't like cutting myself. let's face it, that shit hurts. i let out just enough blood for a photo. there, i'm done! my fear was that by cutting myself, i'd trigger the cutter in her. if i did that, then i'd feel like such a fuck up and i'd hate myself for a long time. later, i get that dreaded message. when someone tells you that they're not the right person for you, that's breakup taking. and this is the second time she's broken up with me online like this. fucking great. but then she writes back that she's not breaking up with me. ok, so you're not the right person for me and you're not breaking up with me?..... hmm.. well then... what... so i open up and talk about how i have been a bad girlfriend and what i need to do to improve. relationships bite. they're great but they always bite you in the ass suddenly...and hurt you more than anything has ever hurt you.]]> http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/im_apparently_not_the_right_person_for_you.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/im_apparently_not_the_right_person_for_you.html uncoupling Sat, 09 Oct 2010 23:26:49 -0800 here's what i watched in september. changeling - i kinda wanted to see this film before and was hesitant. not bad. what's crazy is how it's based on a true story. i'm always fascinated by films that are set in los angeles as that's where i'm from, but in particular those that are historical and based on something that actually happened. inglourious basterds - probably tarantino's best film to date, although again he's not exactly original. definitely the strongest ending he has come up with. i'm not into tarantino but i feel compelled to watch his films at some point. inglorious bastards - when i watched the extras in tarantino's version, i thought it was a close remake but now that i've seen the original, hmm, i think i much prefer tarantino's work. watchmen - this was just ok, however the introduction was superb. a great weaving of history with the characters. i am particularly fond of their take on the famous nurse/sailor kiss of word war 2. django - this was such a great spaghetti western that i got the soundtrack too. one flew over the cuckoo's nest - i'm trying to knock off the great films, the ones that have won awards and such. classics you might say. you know, not sure how i feel about this one. i'm not really a jack nicholson fan or a 70s movies fan. i don't think it's a must see. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/septembers_netflix_buffet.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/10/septembers_netflix_buffet.html watching Fri, 01 Oct 2010 23:11:56 -0800
x japan take a bow i went to see x japan as they are known now but to me they will always be simply "x". they played at the wiltern. i'm not a big x fan but i went for a couple of reason. first of all, they became popular when i was in junior high, living in japan. they are a big part of japanese rock music. they are a part of my teenage years. that this band would be in america is amazing. second, this band is so huge that this is an unheard of opportunity to see them at a smaller venue. i could never see them at such a small venue in japan. third, since hide killed himself, they have sugizo from luna sea filling in. in the past few years i've really gotten into luna sea. sugizo is half japanese. both his parents are half. as i am also half, i find this interesting. it's just a small factor that makes him intriguing. fourth and not least, to continue to show my support for japanese rock bands playing outside japan to show them that it is economically sound to tour abroad. maybe one day buck-tick will do likewise. given that i'm not the biggest fan and only really know the first 2 albums (i'm including the indie release on this one), i had to do some studying and take notes in order to figure out the setlist. given that i'm not the biggest fan, i wasn't as into the show as i should've been. for example, i don't care for all the breaks in the show just to try to get the audience to chant "x!" and have the band respond "we are x!". setlist: (se) classical versions of forever love, etc. [the lights go down, classical music with voice] jade rusty nail (yoshiki switches from piano to drums) silent jealousy wriggle (no yoshiki) drain (violin and piano introduction) kurenai [toshi gave the mic to yoshiki] (yoshiki switched from piano to drums) born to be free (dancing girls as well) drum solo (yoshiki on piano) IV x (big we are x moment) encore: [yoshiki thanks audience, piano is dirty so it takes a long time to play again] endless rain (yoshiki on piano, pre-recorded drums) [sugizo violin moment] [pretty piano piece with violin pre-recorded] (yoshiki back to drums) art of life (edit) [pre-recorded forever love while the band poses for photos on stage]]]> http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/x_japan_in_los_angeles.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/x_japan_in_los_angeles.html listening Sat, 25 Sep 2010 23:57:32 -0800 recently i came up with what i thought would be a fun new goal for me: to try every lesbian club in LA at least once. well for the past 2 nights i tried new ones and didn't talk to anyone, no new friends made, and went home feeling like shit. i should probably just kill myself because i can't make friends, i have no friends, etc. just when i'm pondering this, i receive a text message. oh, well this person is not in contact with me much, i guess i'll break my phone silence and give them a ring instead of texting back. i mentioned that i'm thinking of renting a hotel room for my birthday to have a party. she said that it sounds like fun. i hang up realizing that i do have friends. ok, maybe i'll live to see this party i'm gonna throw. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/i_have_friends_1.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/i_have_friends_1.html thinking Fri, 17 Sep 2010 17:45:30 -0800 i went with my cousin to knott's soak city. it's a water park that's close. i've only ever been to raging waters as a kid. i've been wanting to check out water parks again because i enjoyed it so much as a kid. there were some local coupons going around so i figured it was my opportunity to go. i'm really glad my cousin went with me because he carried the floatation rafts and tubes. i would have been very tired if i had to lug those all by myself. i enjoyed all of the ones that you had to ride on a raft or tube. i didn't like the slides that you just go down on your butt like a regular slide. why? because it caused lots of water to go up my nose (even when i was covering my mouth/nose with my hand) and shove my swimsuit so far up my ass that some might still be up there. the day for it was perfect too. not too hot or cold. very little crowds. they may not have a lot at this soak city, but it's so close that it's worth it. while exiting, we detoured into the independence hall that knott's has. (they are history buffs it seems.) i snapped a photo of the guy that we might be descended from who signed the declaration of independence. overall, not a bad day with family. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/soak_city.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/soak_city.html living Sun, 12 Sep 2010 20:19:49 -0800 it's summer. stay on your butt and be lazy or get off your butt and enjoy it. judging by how many discs i watched, i guess i had half a butt cheek down while the other half was out enjoying it. "one winter story" "riding giants" i got both of these to see some footage of sarah gerhardt, which "one winter story" is all about. she's a chemist who surfs or a surfer who cooks, depending on your perspective. i worked at the chemistry department while she was earning her doctorate and she's just a tad older than me. i remember when word was flying around the department that she was in a movie but by then i think she was already leaving campus, having completed her work. i sent an email congratulating her and joking about how she made her debut before me but i guess she didn't realize i was studying film. anyway, i've never seen sarah surf so i wanted to see her in action! i felt like the overall surf documentary, "riding giants", gives a good history on surfing and big wave riding in particular for someone like me who only knows what they know off of pizza boxes in santa cruz, that the hawaiian princes studying in santa cruz brought it over, however this wasn't mentioned in the film. i felt like the documentary that just focuses on sarah, "one winter story", was good to get to know the hardships she went through, but not so interesting for the length. i felt like it could've been reduced to a short and actual surfing footage was lacking. the cinematography and music were good though. "apocalypse now" "full metal jacket" "the killing fields" this could be the holy trinity of vietnam films. years ago i set out to watch all the major vietnam films and i've only finally come around to it, mostly thanks to dvr-ing "no reservations with anthony bourdain" and since tony is always talking about how great "apocalypse now" is, i figured that it's time. i just gotta say that that particular film is not that great! i much preferred "full metal jacket" and "the killing fields". watching the extra features of "the killing fields", the director states that this is not a war movie, it's really a love story set in war, something like that. i think that's the heart of why the film works so well at depicting what people go through in war. "full metal jacket" is much more focused on soldiers. the beginning felt very familiar to me. i know it from samples in ministry songs. i know it from junior high, i'm sure. however, i couldn't remember the rest of the film and yet, i could tell how it was going to end so perhaps i had the faintest trace of recollection. i found the ending of "apocalypse now" to be confusing. i wasn't so sure of what was going on and was surprised that it was the ending. it felt like sloppy filmmaking. it felt like the climax of the movie without any kind of followup resolution. we built up to this and it's over just like that? "my fair lady" - i saw snippets as a kid but i don't think i watched the whole thing. again, this is a classic i've never seen so i have to see it. is this an early version of the "pretty woman" type subgenre? well, she's not a whore but it's taking a poor person without class and putting them into high society. perhaps the plot didn't extend far enough into this woman's experiement or future. it was just ho-hum. "iron man" - since i saw the sequel in theaters this summer, i thought it was best if i saw the original. i don't want to like these films but they are enjoyable. perhaps if any other actor played the lead, it would've sucked, but robert downey, jr. is good at being a brilliant pompous rich prick with a heart of gold. http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/augusts_netflix_buffet.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/09/augusts_netflix_buffet.html watching Wed, 01 Sep 2010 21:17:17 -0800 i took my girl to see scars on broadway, the side project of daron and john from system of a down as we both love system. the show was at the palace. maybe these days it's called the avalon or something else. i don't give a fuck. it will always be the palace to me. now i see why i don't go there for concerts anymore! the place really needs air conditioner. i mean, we did see the manic street preachers here but tonight it was really bad. the cool thing though was that i could see shavo was there and next thing you know he joins the band, thus it was like practically seeing system of a down. damn, scars on broadway are so good! i was mad at daron before for cancelling the tour i was going to go to but this show just might make up for it. now if only we can get scars at a better venue or bring system back. i really love the new scars on broadway song "fucking" by the way, it totally rocks! setlist: serious exploding/reloading stoner-hate funny insane babylon (extended ending, very beautiful) enemy (extended) "lying there inside of a tomb... feed the hungry ghost" (not sure of this song, this is a line i think i heard. could it be new or a cover?) (extended jam intro) whoring streets world long gone chemicals universe 3005 fucking "maybe you're lazy sitting lazy in the sun, all of your friends are talking shit while they get high" (same with this song, i'm just not familiar with it) assimilate (skinny puppy cover) cute machines (shavo on guitar) they say (shavo on guitar) http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/08/scars_on_broadway.html http://www.calavera.com/skullblog/archives/2010/08/scars_on_broadway.html listening Fri, 20 Aug 2010 23:44:29 -0800