the category for this entry should be "loving". last night olive told me that she loved me. i was so surprised. i feel like saying the same but i'm so reserved. i can't allow myself to feel for someone. i just felt or assumed certain things to the point where i didn't think she was that into me. i had started to let all the little things of how we are different build up and think that we shouldn't date. i thought she wasn't that into relationships. in fact, she had just gone off to her friends on why people shouldn't get married and then i went upstairs to sleep because i was so tired. so i was really surprised when i laid down and she was tucking me in, if you wanna call it that, that she said those magic words. surprised, but in a good way, and it felt so nice to hear her say those words. it's like those words were the magic that broke the chains off my heart and allowed me to start to really feel for her.

this morning, she told me about how she recently went to the club that we often go to and the bartender asked her where her girlfriend is. i think people usually assume that of us and we have to say we're just dating, not girlfriends. but this time, my response to the tale was that maybe we already are girlfriends. and that's how today i am officially no longer single. olive is my girlfriend and i'm happy. *joy* i'm surprised it took this long because as we've been dating i've been feeling special things for her and have felt like saying, so are we together now? like when can i update my facebook profile, hahahahhaa. and now i can!