the day after heliosphan left, i got sick. i was fine when she was sick and staying at my place but as soon as she left, i was sick. i think her germs that stayed behind festered and multiplied in the hours of absence while i was out of the house so that when i returned i was hit with an invisible wall of sickness.

after going through with the drama with the ex- on sunday, i awoke to a wonderful monday. i didn't care if i was sick, i felt sooooo good. i didn't want to say anything though and waited. so far, i still feel great. i've been sick this week but i just feel so damn good. i really think i'm over the breakup now. this immense weight has been lifted off my body. i can feel the burden is no longer there. i can't really form into words what this is like. it's just incredible. i know there are times when one feels good, only to take a small stumble. however, this doesn't feel like that. i had been lying before when i said i feel better. truly now i do. i'm scared to stumble again because i feel so good. if i am truly over the breakup, it's just a miracle that i'm ahead of schedule!

woo hoo!