getting pulled over by cops before the sun even rises whilst on your way to work is not my idea of fun but that's exactly what happened this morning. he said my license plate frame light was out. he didn't give me a ticket but he wouldn't stop talking. i kept smiling and being polite because i didn't want a ticket but i was getting anxious as hell because i didn't want to miss the carpool and have to drive in to work by myself. seriously, it was taking so long that i thought he was just gonna ask me out because he was asking where i work, what do i do, etc. but i shouldn't complain too much because i didn't get a ticket and i wasn't late for work.

that put a slight damper in my morning but it was ok, didn't ruin things. i spent most of the night comforting olive. there was a little drama going on. me and her, i think it's fair to say that it's back on or something's going on that i can't name. after the blowup with my ex- a few days ago, we went out for drinks and talked about various things. it helped me to feel a lot better. eventually i had to make the move and hold her hand. i've learned from my past that if you like someone you can't hold back. i've always held back. you can't win if you hold back. since she said she just wanted to be friends, we have hung out a couple times and i was very respectful. but i couldn't take it anymore, especially not after she confessed that she's been wanting to kiss me. so i had to hold her hand. i just had to!

then last night you could say we traded places with me comforting her over the drama she's going through with her ex-. despite the sadness, we laughed a lot. it's so important to laugh. i really like just laying down in the dark and talking with a friend from the depths of your soul. there's an intimacy there that can't be beat. just ask any friend who has ever tried to sleep with me in the same room. i can't stop talking once the lights go out. free to be myself in the dark, perhaps...no front, just raw self. so we talked, laughed, a tear, a kiss, sweetness. just sweetness.