i got dumped again. i thought this was the year of the ox. no, apparently it's the year of dumping kalavinka. it wasn't in person or over the phone. it was online. now some would cringe at this and in theory i do too, however i received a very candid and honest message and i understand their position and all that so i'm ok with things. plus we've only been seeing each other for about 3 weeks. it was enough to build back up my ego and sense of self worth. it felt great to feel attractive again.

while my ego did get a slap and maybe some tears came out, i'm not heartbroken because my heart was already broken. however, i was very comfortable with this person from the beginning and that was a first. usually i freak the hell out when i find out that somebody likes me. oh well, now this frees up my time to get back to what i had intended to do--practice music again so that i can write that great break-up album that i have in mind. so far i've only written down lyric ideas. maybe now the album can be a journey of breaking up, rebounding, getting dumped again, and then moving on and being ok with life...because i think i can do that, be ok with life, and it's pretty amazing.