i tried to get over my ex-. i tried to heal things, make things better, get them back... but it just doesn't work. i'm back to square one. things had been going so well because i stopped stirring shit up and analyzing it. but i only put it on the back burner and wasn't facing the truth. now i'm facing it. i'm utterly miserable. and no one's around. the ex- is out of the country so i can't talk to them. i have no friends. none of them are online at the moment. last time i felt this low, i actually dared to call people but no one picked up. this time i can't even bring myself to call people. i won't be able to speak. only tears and typing.