today my mom called me at work to yell at me about taxes. she got me very upset. i started to cry. i couldn't talk to her. i had to call my ex- to vent and so she called my mom to help take care of this. my mom was mad because she had an appointment at a place that does taxes for free but when she went today, they told her that her taxes are too complicated so they can't do them. tax returns of course are due in 2 days. my mom takes this out on me. she thinks that children should do their own taxes and also their parents' taxes. her friends' children do this but hers do not so it's very embarrassing that she will have to have her friends' children do her taxes. she goes on. it's ridiculous. basically since i'm born in this country, i should be able to do the taxes, that doing taxes are easy. yes, being born here means i understand all the tax laws and yes taxes are so damn easy, that's why you got rejected at the free center! even if i filed my own taxes, they are very simple and i wouldn't understand enough of tax laws and write off possibilities out there to do my mom's taxes. anyway, the argument was turning bad but my mom was kind of laughing about it, though she was dead serious. she started playing the immigrant card too much. it almost made me xenophobic and say well why do you even live here then and by your logic then i'm sure you have no issues doing taxes in your country of origin.

in the evening was a little more stress. my ex- is going out of town for a week to a border town that has had lots of violence lately, way more than usual. things will probably be fine but we both fear that this time there will be trouble. what if this is the final good-bye? and if she hadn't broken up with me, this probably would've been the trip that i finally went with them to that town. *sigh*