so much for no more tears! today was a really hard day for me. i created my own ebay/half.com account. this way i can sell things on my own and as you may have noticed, now on the sidebar is "the great divorce sale" (hardy har har). it's pretty much the same stuff i had before, just less. less because some was theirs and some was ours that i say they can just keep. as morrissey sang in the smiths, "i don't have much in my life but take it, it's yours".

making my own account was really hard because we had a joint account. it was many years ago that the account was created, perhaps within 1-2 years of ebay first going public. i don't know why the account was in their name and not mine. that's just how pseudo marriages go. you just do things together. part of the account was connected to her paypal and bank account, another part connected to my bank account and credit card. so i went and removed my info as much as i could. then i made my own account and had to have both open so i could list my stuff on my new half.com account. then take them down from hers. really just hard for me. very hard to describe the pain. perhaps because it was a significant marker of the separation. that we are now separated financially as well. i need to create my own paypal account of course but since i'm not doing any ebay activity at the moment, (the pain of) this can wait. there are still some loose ends in this regards that need to be taken care of but i'm just too emotionally exhausted.