today we took some time out and let it all out. poking and prodding for more and more details. i need this to understand, heal, and reach closure. to learn from. to not wonder why. worst thing to realize: a cheater is a cheater and will always be a cheater.

today's heartbreak lyrics are:

"single" by deconstruction

wash your face to the mirror in an open robe while i watch you from the bed
we made a pool of sweat again this afternoon
a bedroom
two months into a day
it's a shame when the parts fit
it's a shame when the parts fit but the machine won't work
all dressed up in the dream but without the wings
heating up to fusion instead of a union
even love can't make two one
it's breaking me
all i could have done
all i did not do
my exoskeleton heart
you reach through to my ribs with your chipping fingers and revealing fingernails
breathe into me
breathe into me your the pale-skin gift that no god ever promised me
thank you for my life