for years i've been a bad friend. after leaving home to go to college, i lost touch with my first best friend from when i was in kindergarden. 13-14 years after kindergarden, it can be hard to be friends with someone because the friendship isn't based on playtime and pretend anymore. we just didn't make a smooth transition i think but i always considered her to be a good friend. so i felt bad about not keeping in touch. i also feel like i was not keeping in touch on purpose for personal reasons. but always in the back of my mind lingered the to do item of "must get in touch with so and so". i think the last time we were in contact was at the turn of the millennium, not exactly sure but maybe then. i'm not really sure where the hell she is even living anymore. i decided to do some internet detective work, determined to finally right the wrong and get in touch. i found a number, called, and spoke to her. this was 2 weeks ago i think. i was nervous as hell. of course she had no idea who it was but since my name isn't common, it was a bit sad that i had to give my full name for her to remember who i was. i gave her my contact info, not sure if she'd bother but i had some hope. no contact yet. oh well, at least i tried. i finally tried so it's no longer going to bother me that i owe her a conversation over tea or something like that. we had a lot of fun as kids. i'll always remember that.