tonight i attended my second quinceañera and again i was working it. this time it was a much smaller scale affair and i was the "photographer", probably because i'm the only one with a manual camera, will do it for free, and had nothing else to do that night. i spent most of the night outdoors freezing my ass off. at one point i was literally shivering. that's when i realized i've lost any sort of thick skin that i had acquired from living where it's colder. but while longing for warmth, i looked around at everyone who had gathered, all smiley and happy. i wondered if this many would gather for an event in my life and would they be as smiley and happy. i wasn't sure what that event would be...a wedding or if i had a kid and it grew up to have a big birthday party like this. but i just started thinking about many people gathering together and i doubted it. and then being happy and i doubted that too. *sigh*