la soledad para siempre [thinking]
i was going to post something along these lines a couple days ago but now i think it's completely true. in the past year or so i've noticed that all my friends (with the exception of perhaps one) have done one of the following (if not more): got engaged, got married, had a kid, bought a house, and that kind of "grown up" activity... things against my code of life. (i used to say that if my friends got married or had a kid i would stop talking to them but it only happened with one because we never really had that much in common to begin with.) so it seems that that old cliche of getting older has hit me now. that "everyone but me" thing... truly youth has left me now and there's no going back. in some ways it makes me want to completely shrug off this old life for a new one but the new one will be the same because no matter where i go, everyone my age will be in the same position. they are shacking up and settling down. i don't know how long i can live by the ideals i set for myself as a teenager; as a young adult they were altered a bit though still on the same trajectory. i guess i just have to go along with the changing tide of life and learn to adjust or drown in it.

