today i totally skipped out on going to take the japanese language proficiency test. i haven't studied for it at all so i knew i would fail so there's no point in going there to waste my time when i know the outcome. i know it's a waste of money but it was my decision to make. i thought by signing up for the test it would force me to study to improve my japanese but it did not.

instead i went to lunch with my mom at pf chang's. i haven't been there in a long time. we ordered the vegetarian lettuce wraps as an appetizer. since it's been so long, i can't quite remember what they're supposed to look like. i was eating it and thinking that it's amazing how they season the tofu to taste like chicken. twiddle thumbs was very skeptical of what it was. she always is. i called it paranoia until today. they served me chicken! i fucking ate meat! the bastards! it made twiddle thumbs very sick and she spent a significant portion of her time in the restroom. for me, it didn't make me immediately vomit. i knew i would pay through the other end tonight or tomorrow. i'm really upset about how my vegan streak was broken, that now i have meat in my system. i don't know how long it takes for all of the body's cells to regenerate but i do know that i've been reset to 0. it sucks.