i was never really sure what i wanted to be when i grew up. i never passionately want to be something that's why i've never pursued any career. i'm still trying to figure out what it could be. just being an adult, i know i have to make money. no money = no shelter, no food. but what can i possibly make money in and enjoy? i feel like doing something for money takes the pleasure out of it. i swore i'm going to return to school this year and i will. just community college classes but it's a way for me to feel things out in terms of can i learn it, am i good at it, and do i like it for cheap. but i really don't want to continue down the path of carpal tunnel. i don't want to admit i'm in the beginning stages but i'm there. my grip is not what it used to be. it hurts sometimes to pick up simple cardboard boxes or open up a package. i just can't do jobs where i'm in front of a computer all day. or at least one that isn't ergonomic. this sucks.