lately i feel so busy in my zeal to finish off the buck-tick page i'm redoing that i'm neglecting everything else. i keep saying this but it's so true. i've all these other ideas in my head and even some i've discussed with other people and agreed to collaborate on but i have no freakin' time for it right now. i'm just so focused on this one task at hand. i've got tunnelvision! i've even pondered abandoning this blog or putting it on hold. not just yet though. i've got some desire left in me to continue. i do feel bogged down by spam though. i've taken measures to reduce it on this blog and on another blog engine i'm using on another site. it's helped considerably. now i'm weighed down by all the email spam. i've become very attached to my email addresses but i think it's time to start fresh on a new one and be much more careful with it so that it's not full of spam.