i came to wish you an unhappy birthday [living]
today is the day! i turned 30. good-bye 20s. you were nice but i wasted you. i do not intend to waste my 30s. i was really looking forward to turning 24 because i had this notion that that was the age when people peaked visually. i wasted that period in unhealthiness. i doubt i even took a photo that year. now i am really looking forward to turning 34. that's when i'll have my big bash. now that i'm 30, i can no longer hide behind the facade of youth. i can no longer cringe when someone calls me "ma'am". hey, yes i still can! i'm not that old yet. out of all my friends, i'm still one of the youngest which allows me to continue to tease their old asses.
birthdays are only important when you're a kid or if you hit a milestone. 30 is not a big enough milestone for me. conveniently we just moved so i was able to make a small hoopla out of it by having a joint birthday/housewarming get-together. we played music, a playlist i worked on for over a week, until the first guest arrived and then put on a dvd he wanted to watch. then another friend arrived and we changed dvds. more friends arrive and we change dvds again. needless to say, the music never came back. we showed pictures we had taken in japan as no one has really seen them. we just haven't had time! i've shown some co-workers and my grandmother, but that's it. people started to leave and then the remainder of us picked up my mother and went to dinner at p.f. chang's. this is my second time there. they are vegan friendly but we also had the non-vegan cake. hell, it's my birthday and you only turn 30 once!



