i think i'm over my april depression now. actually, i'm forcing myself to be. i can't do this anymore. a couple years ago i was really happy because i thought i was over this stupid cyclical depression in april crap. that it has returned this year has depressed me even more. i suppose there were triggers which caused it to manifest again. in the past when i was breaking the cycle, i was so shocked that i wasn't having an april depression that i tried to think of triggers but that didn't work. eventually i gave up and the cycle was broken. um, more like skipped or in recession, not broken. i guess this is just one of those things i will always have to deal with. like a junkie with their addiction.