well, i did it. i did what i set out to do earlier this week. (see entry "you think you know her".) i've already told 1 person and now i just need to tell 1 more person. i was having lunch with my friend with the purpose of telling them i used to like them but it was just so damn hard to do that we talked about everything else. each day i had been flip flopping as to whether i wanted to go through with it or not. i thought of various ways to say it but how i actually said it was completely different than what actually took place. i imagined myself saying it bit smoother and instead i came off as a total dork. but that's ok. i knew this friend wouldn't mind at all. i told her that i decided to be brave and tell the first girl i ever had a crush on that i used to like her and was hoping that she wouldn't take it the wrong way and still be my friend. we discussed this for a little bit and moved on to another subject. as our time together was wrapping out i couldn't wimp out of it so at the last second i told her that i feel so awkward saying this but that i also used to like her too. just as i thought, she didn't take it the wrong way at all, was even flattered, and now i feel so much better that it's out of the way. one more person to tell and it's gonna be the hardest one because out of all my friends i've known them the longest and i'd hate to fuck it up and lose their friendship. but like i said before, if they can't handle that one of their friends used to like them well then it's time to move on.