i try not to put much in terms of expectations on things and people but this year i did. i thought it would be one of the best in my life. placing expectations on the year as a whole really bit me in the ass. sure there were some great moments, but the lows easily matched or outdid the peaks.

what i'm doing today is a great way to end a ho-hum year because it's the middle ground of how it's been going for me this year. i'm not doing anything tonight. not going anywhere. this is the no plans new year's eve. not going to vegas. not going to a club. not going camping even. nada. i've been expecting a netflix disc in the mail today. the netflix envelope arrived, but no disc. i've been wanting twiddle thumbs to watch "the atomic cafe" for a long time now. this weekend would finally be it. except, there's no disc. there's only a fragment of the envelope, on which the post office stamped "contents not received". i've had more trouble with netflix post-new zealand than pre-new zealand. actually, pre-new zealand i had no troubles at all with netflix. now they probably think i'm a thief or that my post office is the worst. they keep breaking discs, taking a long time in the mail, and now losing them completely.

twiddle thumbs has over an old friend. i met this person once 10 years ago. naturally, how he looks is not how i remember because i don't know if i can remember anything about the physical features. i just remember a few facts about the person that came out during our conversation a decade ago. things that twiddle thumbs doesn't even know about him or remember him saying. so does this mean my memory is faulty and making things up or she just doesn't know her friend? see, today is a good example. a great way to end the year. it's time to let the good stuff begin.