i can't believe my mother fed me meat today. she asked in japanese, "if i make a vegetable stir fry, will you eat it?" it was getting late for dinner and i was too lazy to make anything so i said, sure i'd have some vegetable stir fry. when the food is ready i go downstairs and it's not just vegetables in the stir fry--there are beans. so i'm eating it and i'm surprised at how good pinto beans taste with the vegetables when suddenly i realize there is another flavor going on. some strange object i cannot place is in the dish. i show my mom one of the pieces and ask her what it is. she eats it and replies, "meat". she says that she just opened up a can of chili and put it in. oh my god! i am sick. i am reeling. i am freaking out internally. the room is spinning and i want to kill someone. i'm afraid how sick i might be later tonight or tomorrow. how much i might vomit or lose control of my bowels because i haven't eaten meat in 1.5 years. but i can't get violent. my mom is so often spaced out in her own little world and i have to pay much more attention to the food she makes especially if she says it's vegetables because to a japanese, it only means that vegetables is the main ingredient. like the time she made some vegetable concoction and put bacos in it. ah!!! i eat the vegetable soup (not sure what vegetable it is, something resembling a cucumber), i eat the sweet bean/grain thingy dish, and i eat rice topped with some strange seaweed that i don't usually eat. but i feel strange. trying to hold back the panic. hoping i'm not going to spend the night on the toilet.

earlier today i went to 2 employment agencies. one went real well. the people seem professional, i got along with them, and it looks like they have a well paying job ready to interview for immediately. i just need to straighten up a few things first. the other agency i went to was the opposite. it seems like it caters to a lower class of people. they didn't seem very professional--c'mon, they're running windows 95! they weren't that friendly. they weren't unfriendly, i just didn't believe their sincerity. in other words, not genuine. it's called acting! look into it people.

[update 9/7/06: i was editing the blog and came upon this entry. i decided to google the ingredients for bacos and it turns out that they are vegan. that explains why i didn't get sick after eating them. however, they aren't exactly good for you either as they are made with artificial and gmo ingredients.]