now i have a phone, a computer, and access to the file servers and email, etc. etc. but i still don't feel like i know anything about this job. so many damn acronyms and procedures but i have not been introduced to them. there is no procedure for teaching the procedures. i've been to some meetings and i just don't get what the hell is going on. i also don't feel like they are productive. i went to a joint meeting with telecom. boring as shit. some people were very bitchy and obviously hate each other. there's a movie in this somewhere but it would be very boring. need to spice it up with a lot of fiction.

the other thing that i find really strange about this job is that almost everyone is new. i haven't heard of anyone who has been there over 1 year. i'm sure there must be someone who has worked there for 2 years or more, i just have no idea who. that they have only worked there a few months and know so much about their job scares me a little bit. it's like, what is the learning curve timeframe? when am i expected to "get it"?

i feel like leaving the job 'cos i'm not happy. it's not interesting, i'm not having fun, etc. but i don't want to do that because it makes me look bad to the agency i think. they use a different software, lotus notes, that i am not used to so i want to stick around just to learn it to add it to my list of 'skills' but it's a pretty simple thing to use. seems like standard software so it's probably not necessary to spend too much time with it. maybe 2 days. hahahaaaaaa

my little slice of cubicle hell